2014 was a year of great change for me. I am definitely not the same person I was last year. But really who is? There have been many events this year that have changed the way that many of us think and act. One of the biggest I have seen the effects of are the Michael Brown case. They have made people lose trust, fear for those they love that are police officers, fear for those they loves interaction with policemen, and caused a great disconnect in our country. While public events truly do change us, here are the 10 things I have learned about life over the last 12 months from the things I have expierianced this year.
1. I needed Something else
For the last few years I have been a stay at home mom. I was ok with just being mommy. Then this year that wasn’t enough anymore. I wished I had finished school. I wished there was more to my life than just being a mom. That is when this blog started! I wanted more and So I started telling my story, reaching out, and helping moms like myself. I love connecting and helping to change the lives, thoughts and worries of other mothers but it just wasn’t bringing in a steady income which I needed and it didn’t get me out of the house and away from being mom. So, I got a part time job working at my friend Michelle’s store Paint and Paddles. It has been great to get out of the loudness that is my life, sit and talk to customers, and have time alone to myself.
2. I have a Love/Hate relationship with travel
We traveled to and from Montana twice this summer. One time we flew, one time we drove. We also went and spent Christmas in Wisconsin. I love traveling once I am there. I hate the getting ready to travel. I feel like I am having to make myself do something that makes me miserable in order to go have fun.. It also doesn’t help that I do 90% of the packing for all three of us. Then I get yelled at if something is forgotten. Like really? Plus I have get the dogs packed up and off to my parents house with their beds and food. It just is a lot to prepare for in order to go away onto of everything I do in our daily lives.
3. I’m not perfect and that’s pretty awesome
I have always strived to be perfect and you know where that has got me? Nowhere because I will always fall short! But you know what, who wants to be perfect anyways? The mistakes are what make us better. They make us stronger and they make us who we are. Plus, they make for some pretty funny stories.
4. I HATE quiet
When I started working all of a sudden I knew what quiet was. The store was dead silent. I had gotten so used to hearing monkey man run around and make a lot of noise that I no longer could stand for there to be none. I now pump the music at work so I am not in deafening silence. I also appreciate hearing him yell and make shooting noises through the house.
5. God Needs to be #1 always
I do my best to always have the time to pray and spend time in the word but
somedays a-lot of days I just get busy and forget. I have learned that those days are always my worst days. I need that time with God to reset. I need that time to get my mind, body, and soul ready for the day. Without it everything seems worse than it is.
6. I can’t control how many kids I have
We have now been trying for the last year to have another baby. It really isn’t going so well. I have had a few miscarriages. Those have really taken a toll on me. So here we are a year later and still no baby. Still not pregnant. I am having to live with the fact that it is Gods will not mine. Only he can give and take life. When it is time he will give us babies. Or maybe it will never be time. Maybe it is meant to only be monkey man. Either way I am now at peace with it. It is in his hands and is his will.
7. It’s ok to say no
I have always said yes to anything anyone needs. This year I have learned to say no. I have stopped running myself ragged, being filled with stress, and being unhappy. I say no when it is not something I can do easily. I learned not to over commit myself. My time has become short in supply. I only have time fore things that are truly meaningful.
8. Take Time For Me… Demand it!!
This has been the hardest lesson for me. I am not used to getting Me time. I am not even used to showering by myself. how many of you have little ones that will walk in unannounced? I have learned I need to demand this time. Monkey man is now 4 there is no reason I should not be able to step out of the room for 5 minutes to use the bathroom in peace. I have put my foot down and I have demanded that if he sees the bathroom door closed he does not open it. I have demanded that if mommy needs to go out with the girls, daddy is going to watch him. I have demanded that my needs be met because I can no longer afford to mentally lose it.
9. Children are the best teachers
Monkey man has taught me so many lessons this year. Like when he taught me who the real super heroes are and when he told me to be a little more like Jesus. They see the world from such an innocent place. Sometimes we need to see the world through their eyes to find what really matters in life.
10. Life isn’t forever.
This year I have had some really hard losses. The loss of my mentor and friend Maylene has been the hardest. She made me who I am today and this world is not so easy without here. Monkey man lost his puppy as well. It has made us appreciate the time we do have and has made me stop saying I will do that in the future. There may not be a future. It is time we start doing what we want to do. Start spending time on what matters and stop wasting the precious time we do have on things that don’t matter because today is a present and tomorrow is never promised.
What have you learned this year? How has your life changed? I would love to hear and learn from you in the comments.